following the pattern

This summer, we spoke softly of hopes and dreams.
This season, we dared mention futures intertwined.
This month, we shared important memories and moments
This weekend, we created a mutual investment in permanent circumstances


...and i'm really feeling uncomfortable. i've pairbonded with a man who closely reminds me of my father, and i often feel like my mother. not in any of the good ways, either.


So, I've made a solid commitment for the holiday season, and I'm happy to see the future, but i still can't shake the feeling that you won't be there.